A Heart That Never Wins

Falling faster than my panties hit the floor
Before I know it you're heading for the door...and once more
The cycle begins of me wanting in where
I don't belong
See I knew all along the ending of this song...
Me Pain Tears and the Fears
That it will never end because it's just began
The cycle of a heart that never wins
Falling faster than my panties hit the floor and U don't want it anymore...
My heart's still sore
Let me close this door
I DON'T WANT IT ANYMORE

Hmmm...

Just a little something something...short and simple I call it:

Hmmmm...

I sit and wonder if it’s you I really miss…or is it your sweet kiss. I wonder I really do…is it the moments or is it you. I think about your arms…is it lying or crying in them that had me charmed. I think about your touch…what about it means so much. I sit and wonder if it’s you I really miss or the thought of us that was bliss. I think about you to much, you got my heart in a clutch. What the fuck, this shit sucks.

Hot Fudge

Well since my writers block keeps hunting me I decided to post some old poetry. I wrote this about 2 yrs ago...true story!!!

Hot Fudge

I remember the first time my eyes
set upon your face. I was amazed.
Your lemon toned complexion created
an hypnotizing glaze. I craved everything
about you down to your toes. Perfection.
On a porch that used to belong to me
I sat and watched you and pretended the
wetness forming was caused by the heat.
As much as my body yearned your attention,
I just knew I would never have your affection.

Four years later…

In the Moment

*Disclaimer...inspired not necessarily true

In The Moment


I knew after the 1st night,
that you’d be soon out of sight

But I decided to live for the moment,
even if it was never really meant

I became in luv with the thought,
So my mind and my heart fought

A battle that neither could win,
but would lose in the end

See I thought I was feeling bliss,
and just didn’t wanna lose this

With every touch and every kiss,
he’d reminensce bout what he missed

And I’d pretend I was her, hoping for
the moment it would become more

But it never came.

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So tell me what you think. I got frustrated so I rushed the end and I would like feedback about if you think I should say more or leave it. It's not my best but I'm working on getting it back.

Half Crazy

This song means the most to me right now. It explains my situation to the T. So listen to it so you will understand the meaning of some of my future blogs...I gotta shake this shit!!

What is Rare Complexity? (Intro Post)

I finally decided to create a blog. This is a big step for me. Though I am somewhat open person, it is only with a select few. Now I am being open with the world and honestly I'm scared. This can be very dangerous...lol.

So I came up with the title "Rare Complexity" while talking to my friend Angie. I have not yet defined what that actually means to me but I would love to hear how you all interpret it. I have listed a couple of definitions from some friends. I would love to add more...



defined by Angela
"I think rare complexity means that you're not like everyone else and there's many different sides to you"

defined by Charles
"A rare break from the norm"

defined by Autumn
"A complex thing, maybe person, that is not found very often"

defined by Chicari
"Someone who is extraordinary, like no other and being rare makes you the only one, or among few. Two agreeing words"

defined by DeAnndra
"Rare complexity is that one indescribable moment where you can escape from the familiar problems of ur life..."